I love honest people. I love people that tell you, “Nope, you are wrong”. I don’t hear it enough (and I’m certain it should be said more often to me) so when someone has the courage to tell me I’m wrong, I just want to hug them. Well, I want to hug them after the initial shock of being told I’m wrong wears off.
Mike told me recently that he didn’t like my last few posts. He didn’t feel they were accurate. He felt like I communicated that nothing about me had changed. Like my outward appearance is still the same as when I started and that just isn’t true. As if my original goal of learning about style and applying it to my every day, failed.
As I went about making dinner I thought over what he said and I think he is right. I made it sound like I didn’t learn anything about fashion and style. That I had some inner growth and that was it. Which is okay because inner growth is more important than looking good when you leave the house, right?
I wasn’t being completely honest. And for a good reason (if I do say so myself). What if I told you that I did learn how to dress better? What if I wrote down how I’ve totally started accessorizing? And I have a few more pairs of shoes to my name so now I can wear the appropriate shoes at any given time? What if I told you I have more than one belt now? What if I admitted that I feel so much better when I leave the house because I like the way I look and I didn’t agonize over it for hours?
And what if you took one look at me and said, “Really? That look still needs work, my friend.”
So I subconsciously figured I’d beat you to the punch and just record that I didn’t really learn that much but my heart is in a better place, so there.
Silly, yes. But true.
So let me clarify things a bit. Yes, a lot of inner growth happened. And I’m beyond grateful for the changes that have taken place inside. But I’ve done a lot of outward changing too. Nail polish, necklaces, hats, shoes, straight leg jeans, and jackets. And. I. Love. It.
Watching myself relax when it comes to all things wardrobe related has kept me motivated to continue on this style education. Having fun with clothing and feeling more confident has added an element to my day that I didn’t expect. The preoccupation is no longer on myself, but has turned into an enjoyment of my life.