Dear Diary: Baggy, A Bit Boring, and Totally Blah
This morning when I stared into my closet contemplating what to wear, I really did want to look good. I really did want to feel great. In fact, I had even shaved my legs the night before so I could wear something fancy.
But I grabbed my usual go-to instead: A black t-shirt and some pants that were once great but are now starting to look very baggy. A bit boring. And totally blah.
I’m beginning to notice how I feel when I am well-dressed compared to when I am not.
When I love what I am wearing (which does happen occasionally) I think of the outfit as “dress up”. Like I’m not really supposed to be wearing something that looks so good. When I “dress up” I feel awesome. I feel beautiful and noticeable. I feel like I should be taken seriously. I feel like a grown-up. I feel like I belong.
When I wear something that doesn’t seem to represent me, I feel lost. I feel unnoticed. And I fret all day long about what I am wearing. When I can’t figure out what to wear and grab whatever, I feel like… whatever.
I know I am not “whatever” so it’s time to start figuring out who I am. And I’m hoping that the rest will soon follow.